i wanna believe

i wanna believe that when a person got very down,
she will get higher the next day

i wanna believe that when a person had a raining day,
she would feel sunny the next day

i wanna believe that when a person felt extremely regret about something,
there must emerge a way to solve the problem the next day

i wanna believe when a person got so many bad things happened in a day,
there will be a good thing prepared for her the next day

i wanna believe that when the God close all the doors for the person,
thee willl must open a window for her the next day

i wanna believe that the next day would definately better of

many words beyond typeing
many thoughts beyond time to think, to talk about
however, i choose to spend some time to write this down
still, i am a Sagittarius girl would definately look in the bright side to face all the things
here, now
the most thing i care about is my health
i am very very worried about that
please help me
you know i need you
and i trust you
u told me that the things i need to do is believe you and
tell you that:
I AM RIGHT HERE, AND I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP.
i'll carry that necklace as long as i could
thought i always forget to pray before a meal
and i really do fell sorry
please forgive me
i promise i'll try my best to remember that
may the God bless everyone
especially the one who sacrificed herself to deal with our selfish and my mistake
that is jesophin.

oh no~~~~~~~~~~

Oh no
why....what....how...
why again
i don't believe it
the works in all the three weeks i did were all in vain
cause nothing come out as wish
the three weeks, not just three days, it's 21 days....
all the works, all th sacrafises...
not count that,
how am i going to face teacher about this,
how am i going to ask teacher to apply the project for me
to write the letter for me to apply schools
and how am i going to face sherry
the worse thing is that the "keng"
who always yelled at me
and i am so afraid of him
how am i going to ask for his help to solve the questions
he would probably think i am a bad learner...
since i always failed to answer the questions he ask about the experiments
and the qustions were the ones i suppose to know.
oh my godness.

a wish and a plan

yesterday
amanda and i had a really long chat
we were talking about the future...
we both found out that we don' t really want to keep on doing researsh what we are doing right now,
and we both agreed to apply the master degree first in order to make up the back up plan,
since we don't know exactly what we wanna do in the future.
one thing that i think could be sure is that we are thinking of going to studying the post-graduated degree od medical.
she wants to be a doctor of skin whereas i still want to be a surgeon, a thoracic surgeon.
we intended to apply the school first, for me, it must have to be the university of taiwan,
the one i just want others to know-i can do better, too, especially the ones related to my junior hoh school life.
watch me!!
when we sucessfully get the school.
i'm going to the cram school to study the stuff of the "big" test.
according to the law of attraction
of course i believe i would pass the exam the first year.
in this case i don't have to spend too much time to get what i want.
good idea right?
for the year of preparing the exam,
i think i'm goning to retain the degree i apply to.

right!!
noe it's my plan anyway.