Tears

There were only tears accompanied me falling asleep last night, and woke up this morning.

I think only music now could save me from dropping down to the floor, though I am now a few inches away.

Why can't anyone see that I may just need some care and focuses?

Are'nt their anyone who know how I feel?

When you were all trying your best to say that "she" got her chance to Taiwan University, can anyone care a little, just a little for how I feel about that?

I started doubting whether the home with warm is still exist or not?

I feel like running away from it.

Do I still have to quit what I really want, to sacrifice the things I love just to tell everybody that I can do it, too?

I hate you guys at this moment.

She is not that good, okay?

I'll prove it one day.

Just watch!!!

No matter how hard it take.

JUST OPEN YOUR EYES, BEWARE, AND DON'T MISS IT!

Before this, Don't even think that I'll tell you anything.

Don't even think about it.

Bad Day

i had a bad day

a lot to say

but somehow i just can't say

well i don't think that the feelings inside my heart can express by words

....................

In the field

Looking forward to the world coup soccer game very very much

seeing the soccer players playing soccer in the field

screaming for them

cheering with the favorite teams of mine

of course, the first would be England, then Brazil, and then Australia

one day,

i would be there, in the field, watching the game

hoping my dream come true

Th Rebound

well....
what to say....
i was totally in love with this film very very much
although i definetely won't accept the relationship since the "age problem"
i still do love this film a lot, or appropriate to say-love crazely

i like Justin Bartha, who now to be one of the member in my HGDb
well, which is another long story
he is so adorible and good looking
haha

one day, i'm doing to find one
i believe
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Thanks my dear father,
helping me with my experiments
hope the good luck will go on and on
thank you a lot and a lot

i wanna believe

i wanna believe that when a person got very down,
she will get higher the next day

i wanna believe that when a person had a raining day,
she would feel sunny the next day

i wanna believe that when a person felt extremely regret about something,
there must emerge a way to solve the problem the next day

i wanna believe when a person got so many bad things happened in a day,
there will be a good thing prepared for her the next day

i wanna believe that when the God close all the doors for the person,
thee willl must open a window for her the next day

i wanna believe that the next day would definately better of

many words beyond typeing
many thoughts beyond time to think, to talk about
however, i choose to spend some time to write this down
still, i am a Sagittarius girl would definately look in the bright side to face all the things
here, now
the most thing i care about is my health
i am very very worried about that
please help me
you know i need you
and i trust you
u told me that the things i need to do is believe you and
tell you that:
I AM RIGHT HERE, AND I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP.
i'll carry that necklace as long as i could
thought i always forget to pray before a meal
and i really do fell sorry
please forgive me
i promise i'll try my best to remember that
may the God bless everyone
especially the one who sacrificed herself to deal with our selfish and my mistake
that is jesophin.

oh no~~~~~~~~~~

Oh no
why....what....how...
why again
i don't believe it
the works in all the three weeks i did were all in vain
cause nothing come out as wish
the three weeks, not just three days, it's 21 days....
all the works, all th sacrafises...
not count that,
how am i going to face teacher about this,
how am i going to ask teacher to apply the project for me
to write the letter for me to apply schools
and how am i going to face sherry
the worse thing is that the "keng"
who always yelled at me
and i am so afraid of him
how am i going to ask for his help to solve the questions
he would probably think i am a bad learner...
since i always failed to answer the questions he ask about the experiments
and the qustions were the ones i suppose to know.
oh my godness.

a wish and a plan

yesterday
amanda and i had a really long chat
we were talking about the future...
we both found out that we don' t really want to keep on doing researsh what we are doing right now,
and we both agreed to apply the master degree first in order to make up the back up plan,
since we don't know exactly what we wanna do in the future.
one thing that i think could be sure is that we are thinking of going to studying the post-graduated degree od medical.
she wants to be a doctor of skin whereas i still want to be a surgeon, a thoracic surgeon.
we intended to apply the school first, for me, it must have to be the university of taiwan,
the one i just want others to know-i can do better, too, especially the ones related to my junior hoh school life.
watch me!!
when we sucessfully get the school.
i'm going to the cram school to study the stuff of the "big" test.
according to the law of attraction
of course i believe i would pass the exam the first year.
in this case i don't have to spend too much time to get what i want.
good idea right?
for the year of preparing the exam,
i think i'm goning to retain the degree i apply to.

right!!
noe it's my plan anyway.

my roomate

yesterday
one of my roomate had a very serious conversation with the boy she likes
but she failed in the end
so sad
what i feel sad is beacause that she is brave but i am not
facing about the issuses like boys and girls always scared me
perhapes it is because nobody really ask me to go out or something
not once
am i that ugly or unfriendly or.....not social or... i don't know
i am not that bad, alright
okok
i'll wait and i hope he would come soon..........

Today....

another eight hours today for lab
PCR, DNA gel, gel extraction, dugestion, ligation....
many many experiments in a single day
i still don;t really get it why the people love theses so much
maybe i do "love" it
just that i was overwhelmed by all of the things recently

wondering about the future
thinking about the life
planning the stuff i wanna do
hoping a bounch of unreality things happen in my life

hoping to bump into GyuHyun some day in the future
or maybe alexander wang.............too many too many peaople i would like to meet
of course seeing one of my friend, well roomate
started to see a guy last week
alright, alright...
a little bit jealous
she is the person i can't even bare her behaviors and attitudes from time to time
why she can...
well, to be honest, she is a nice person
but why?
not me?
i just can't get it.
unbelievable

ok ok
i still believe that "my day" waould come
but i hope it would be soon
cause it college-a perfect age for dating, don't u tink so?

ah~~~~~~~~~
bad day
happy day
busy day
i don't know~~~~~~~

long time no see

wow
last night was so perfect.
the four of us had dinner together at taipei.
first, i was afraid that the situation would be embarrased since we haven't seen each other for so long.
to my surprise,
everything seems so perfect that far beyond my suspection.
we chated, ate the delicious italian food, and talked about everyting.
it never seemed to have an end of the talk.
i love it.
we had a deal that we'll going to have the next reunion next week.
just can't help.

they are all excellent at their fields.
there seems no any excuse for me to be lazy.
i want to go to "dai dia" one day
and i want to tell them i am good anyway.
i believe i will
an one thing i have to concern about is that what exactly i want next step
please help me, Father.

The Birthday of 2008

Today,
i successfully loading the vedio present of 2008 from my friends into the MP4.
i watched it again,
still that touched
still that grateful
still think leehom is that handsome...

anyway thanks for all of them
my life have become colorful and meaningful
love them all

The Doomstay Clock

have u seen the news today.
scientists are going to rereguate the Doomstay Clock in chicago to night.
the clock shows the time of the doomstay day estimated by many situations.

wow
this is the first time i heard about the clock.
there indeed exist the clock.
what a surprise.
the clock has been adjusted for 19 times.
now it shows 11:50 pm
how close to the earth dead.
i am praying that the time coul be longer after the adjustion tonight.

i still got many things undone.
i couldn't bear any regretment in my life
please.....
help the world
help the earth
help ourselves....
love the envirinment we live

one day,
i am going to write a song about this to the worlds by myself
and everyone can hear that
i have confidence

An interesting website-GOOP

Today,
i found a very interesting website
there are many articles in description of different fields.
such as how to cook in healthier way,
some good hotspots for visiting in the world......
the most important is that
i like the way the website disign,
the color, the feelings.....
thaks for finding the website.
it gives me a better feel about this world.

yesterday, i went to the hospital for seeing the results of my boold testing.
the results didn't show any improvement, actually.
the worst thing is that the doctor sounded frastrated for the question i asked.
maybe he was just too tired, i don't know...
and i was barely hit by a bus when i crossed the street without realizing that that light hadn't turned into green yet.
then, i found that i have no money for dinner...
yesterday was really not my day.

i started worried about the problem of my body.
though it is not that serous.
but how am i going to tell "him" about this
this is not the problem for my own
how am i going to answer when the person ask me
should i say "no" when i really want to say "yes, i do"
i don;t know.....................
i hope the problem would be solved one day, please.

at night,
my dad sent a message to me,
that message started by
"my adorable daughter, don't feel sad. i will pray to let you be health. you must have to have the faith. remember and trust the law of attraction."
seeing the message made my cry immediately.
thank you great God for sending me such a wonderful father.

One day

Henry,
a Canadian-borned-Taiwanese,
now he's a super star in the Karean team called SJ.
He grew up in Canada.
how he got the gut to go to Karea and became a star.
the place was crouded with people who all want to be stars.
but he did it.

can i do that, too?
he wass so brave anyway...
do i have the same gut as he did?
i hope so

An expecting maricle

Today,
i found a person who sings really really well
his name is GyuHyun.
he is a very popular singner around Asia recently,
and he belongs to a goup called SJ.

there are many people i like in that team.
but i like him as the first time i realize the team.
maybe becouse he is major in music
a field that i love and i have no idea when can i get it
maybe never (i still will grasp any chance i can to have it anyway)

i hope one day i could meet him
and e would like me
haha so shy.....
daydreaming, right?
no edges, no restrictions, no rules...........
hoping hoping hoping
wishung wishing wishing

today, a dream of mine came out again
strike my heart strongly...
that is- be a thoracic surgeon
and i "dreamed" about that i have saved a lot of people at the first place
hope that one day would come true.....
i love u

thank you for thee gave me dreams! i love u, too.

Julie or Julia - third post

yesturday, i finished the movie.
kind of good
i want to leaarn how to cook anyway
watch me..........

A letter

Yesterday, i got a strange e-mail from a person that i have no idea who he was.
he said he is a banker in the UK.
there is a quiet a lot money that could be applied.
about eight million taiwan doallar, i think.
first, i thought it was a cheatting.
there have already been so many in our society recently.

second, as what my dad think,
could that be what you wish.
yeah, it could be.
maybe because the law of the attraction.
but what i ask is for the money to go studying in London.
and i didn;t ask that much, u know?

but who cann say it?
maybe it's ture
or it might be true.

anyway whatever it is true,
if i really got the money,
i can not only just apply the doctore or master degree of boimedics
bot also the degrees i guess i really want ,
maybe a doctor, a thoracic surgeon.
or a music maker, movie makers, photogragher, desinger of clothes, houses.....
whatever...
how good would that be, uh?
haha
hoping that day come soon.
(law of attraction^^)

Today....

busy cold tired
busy and cold and tired
busy and cold and tired again
also, ate a lot
i want to get thin
the law of attraction, help me.

novels

another novel i mant to buy
there are six english novels i bought half year ago
the time i should have already finish reading it
however, i want to buy more this time
haha
is that right?
i don't know
can i sort it as approproate spent?
sorry dad and mum...

the novel called "sleeping arrangement"
there are only chinese translated books selt in taiwan
though i still can buy the english one
but it is more expensive by about five times
o la la.........

here's the introduction of the novel
enjoy.....
"unware that a mutual friend has offered both of them his luxury villa in Spain, the families of two overworked people find themselves maneuvering around one another's vacation plans, a situation that is further complicated by a secret shared history. By the author of The Gaterasher. Simultaneous."

kind of interesting, right?
don'task me why i like to read this
maybe it could be a good spend of time.

Julie or Julia - second post

well
another 15 minutes of the movie finished
there is a great sentence in that movie:
"as someone want to say you are the butter to my bread, the bread to my life."
how beautiful it is, right
i just can;t help and love it

the movie invoke me of learning how to cook
damn......i cut my finger today ==
i think there is still a huge space between cooking and me
o la la............

Daydreaming

daydream is a good word
how good it is
depend on you.......

i love the word anyway
the word has so much power, u know
the word could help a woman live without a man
the word can help a person full of hope
the word can give us strength to do on our life
see,
let's keep daydreaming
but of course,
turn the daydreams into reality and pay actions
also can be another lesson for us

Julie or Julia ?

Julie or Julia
how familiar the title is, hah?
well, there is a movie called "Julie abd Julia"
i haven't finish that yet, but i guess it well today.
this movie attrack me by the name
cause i'm julie.
the movie was also the reason i reastart using this blog
maybe i could improve my english writing ability at the same time

alright, alright
go back to the true title
i'm julie, i choose the name as mine, but don't ask me why
i was so young that time
not until few months ago did i realize the name fit me
but i'm still wondering shoukd i changed "julie" into "julia" ?
i have planned to change it when i grew older
but that the problem...what age is "old" anyway
some people do use "julie" as their whole life name
should i do that?
i don;t know
this i skind of a silly problem, isn't it?

but the "old" word could be further discuss
maybe next time or later (when i get bord with my paper work)

i don't know whether there is anyone else would read this
but if there is
i would really welcome and willing of sharing something with u
maybe get a "penpale" this time would be cool haha
well, impossible???(places for daydreaming, right?)
have fun here(fave no ideas of talking to whom???)

well,
another busy week start now
paper working, final exams, the experiments, facing a lot of problems........
can i get a rest or something?
the worst ting is that i got a cold
though it is not that serious, it can delay many things

Hello!

the third blog
a new start
have good day
Bonne annee 2010
hope verything go well
all the daydreams, all the hopes, all the people
togother, we can do many things!
good to have you